Self Worth

So tonight at my institute we had this spa night for all the girls. Before we started pampering ourselves we had to sit through this lesson. The lesson was about inner beauty. I originally didn't want to go to "spa night" because I have been feeling anti social, if you can believe that. I ended up going and let me tell you, I am glad that I did. I really needed to hear the lesson that was given. It was like it was directed straight towards me! I love how every once in a while there are those words that you just need to hear, and someone gives a lesson, and you are like, "can you read my mind... did you write that just for me?" Crazy, I know! This was one of those times. The wonderful person giving the lesson was talking about being women, and the specific things our Heavenly Father gave us as women. It was very sweet and loving and compassionate. It made me think that ok... I can be mad...(like I so clearly pointed out in my last blog)... but as a Daughter of God, and a caring compassionate woman, I can choose to be loving. I actually felt myself torn between wanting to be mad, and knowing I don't have to be, and feeling love. Just the pure love that our Savior has taught us to have. It was an incredible break through, I thought, on my attitude. Maybe I knew what I had to do, but I just didn't want to do it. So this actually was a blessing for me. It wasn't a slap in the face as so many break throughs are. It was a gentle reminder of who I am and how I should be acting. When we were talking about the qualities that women have I couldn't help but think of my wonderful mom! It made me miss her so much. She is so loving and can heal my heart when it is broken, and ultimately do anything she wants. She is super mom! Haha I guess this was a good thing for me to hear. Now all I need to do is show people that I can be happy, and that things are going to get better. I think maybe with the right attitude all this crap that I am going through will be manageable. Just maybe.... Haha Anyway, I am very thankful for my wonderful friends. I only have a couple... haha but at least I have some! So to my friends, thank you for putting up with me when I was acting like The Grinch! I promise I will try and pull myself out of it! Love you!