The heart breaking, disappointing, up and down, game of life.

Life is just ridiculous sometimes. I love my life, but sometimes it just doesn't make me happy. I had a recent change of events happen to me lately. I was with a boy, but now I am not. I was really mad for like a day, but then just decided to get over it! I felt like I had the right to be mad. So I was. But now I am over it. But the good news is that I now have two jobs! Count them... TWO!!! It is really awesome! I work for the UNC Catering services and Little Caesars! I haven't started Little Caesars yet, but Catering is really fun! I am having a fun time working hard! Well that is just some of what is going on with me for now! Just a quick update! Oh and I have some people I want to say that I love soooo much! They are pretty much my life savers! Jill... amazing! Aubrey... amazing! Kevin... amazing! Mom... amazing! Haha!!! LOVE LOVE LOVE them! Oh yeah and I am going to see New Moon with Jill tomorrow! Soooooo excited! Can't even wait!

We thought she was a black girl!!!

So tonight was the first UNC Bears Boys Basketball game! My boyfriend Hauns is on the team! So obviously I went to see him play! Not only did I watch him play but I sang the National Anthem for the game! I was really nervous... but in the end it was pretty great! The team was standing there and they all cheered for me when I was done. So after the game my friend Yahosh, who is also a member of the church and on the team, told me that some of the guys were talking about my singing. I guess they were like, "Oh that is Hauns' girl???? She sounds like a black girl!" I am sure they said this because I did a couple of runs in the song... not like crazy ones... just threw in some fun stuff (mostly because Hauns really likes it when I do that stuff!) haha So I have come to the conclusion that if you just close your eyes and listen to me sing I am a black girl! Haha Crazy boys! My friend Jill was saying I try and tone down my blackness... which is why I look white! Haha sooooo great!

Anyway, the boys won! It was like 111 to 58 or something. We played Western State. They had some pretty good players. They had this guy who was like hitting every single 3 pointer he would shoot. That was in the first half... in the second half I don't think he made one! Sad day! We also discovered the crush of the week! Jill had a crush on one of the boys on the other team! Haha But our guys played really well! Hauns went in at the end of the first half! He didn't score any points. But in the second half he played quite a bit. He scored 5 points, had some pretty sweet rebounds, and just hussled in general! I am sure as time goes by he will get more playing time in the future! But he did so well, I am very proud of him! It was his first game in like two years. He just recently got back from a mission in Taiwan. So he did well for not playing a game in long time! I loved watching him play and I can't wait for another home game!

And just to throw this out there... Michael Buble's new CD is pretty freaking amazing! I love it! LIsten to it if you know what is good for you! My favorite song is "Haven't Met You Yet"! Sooooo good! Watch the music video! You will love it!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1AJmKkU5POA

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Impatience is not a virtue......

Still waiting.

To Be, Or Not To Be....

"'To be, or not to be? That is the question...'

But Shakespeare was wrong.

Knowing that I am a child of God, what need I do

and be to live up to this potential... That is the question!"

President Dieter F. Uchtdorf

So there was a CES Fireside on Sunday night. It was such an amazing talk. President Uchtdorf is such a great speaker. He is so filled with love. His talk was filled with just about everything I needed to hear! I love my gospel so much! I can't get enough of it. I want to read the talks given by the Apostles of the Lord all the time. I love hearing their words. I love reading the scriptures. It brings me such great comfort to just sit and read what my Savior has to say to me. I love it. I love the feelings of happiness that never cease to fill my heart when I am seeking after the word of God. I love how loving and gentle our Prophets are. They are so hopeful about every subject they touch on. Love is a large part of my core being. I thrive off of love, the feelings that love brings, the warmness of feeling loved and wanted, and cared for. President Uchtdorf talked about being happy and finding joy in our lives. I have heard it again and again. We can choose to be happy. Our Father in Heaven wants us to be happy, and we can ultimately choose that happiness. That is something that I am still working on in my life. I love to be happy, but sometimes it just doesn't seem like the easy thing to do. But as some of us heard in the talk on Sunday night, we can all choose to be happy. There it was again... choice... agency. I love this gospel of hope and love.

To Sleep, Perchance to Dream

some people might not know some things about me... and i don't really know who reads this... but it is kinda for me as well as other people. So here it is... stuff about Kennedy McIntosh you might not be able to see on the outside...

10. I am a hopeless romantic. To the max!

9. I am super sensitive... to just about everything.

8. I love attention... but then again who doesn't?

7. Singing is my life.

6. I have dreams about my life that no one knows about.

5. When I hear a song I fall in love with, I become absolutely obsessed with it. I will listen to it over and over again.

4. I love getting flowers. Hasn't happened in a long time. But when it does happen it is one of the most special things ever!

3. I HATE being alone.

2. My family is more important to me than anything.

1. I love My Savior.

Life is nuts!

Well it has been a long time since I have written on here! So here is the update! I moved up to Greeley for school again. I started going to school and from there things just got super crazy! School is pretty tough this semester, I am taking German and Music History, which are my two hardest classes. But school wise things are going pretty well. I am still singing, and I love it so much! As far as my social life goes... well I have had some difficulty in that department. I missed my bestie... Melanie so much! Still miss her... but I guess things are going ok now. I went home a while ago and just wanted to stay there. It was like pulling teeth to get me to come back up to Greeley. Sorry Greeley loves! Haha But I am back up in Greeley now, and actually things are going very well. As soon as I got over myself and started focusing on other things than the pitty party I had going on things started happening.... First of all a really good friend was very persistent in trying to get me to open up to him. Haha Hauns Brereton was there for me the day I got back and things were just ridiculous. He was there to hang out with me... and well we got to be better friends than we were already.... Then we started dating!!!! Haha He is a basketball player for UNC, just got off his mission like three months ago, he went to Taiwan. He is also 6'6"!! So super tall. It is funny because he is still taller than me when he is sitting... I guess it depends on the chair he is sitting in! haha but he is still crazy tall! haha It is the best!

But anyway, right now I am just trying to find a job so I can stay up here in Greeley! School is super expensive! It sucks! I am sure there will be more things to talk about some other time! But for now that is what is going on in my life!

Fallin' For You... <3!

So I am up here at school. It has been two weeks, probably two of the most difficult two weeks for me lately. I left my family, my best friend, and my comfort box. Haha But things have been going ok up here, apart from the difficult part! One of the things that has been getting me through is music! Haha I have been obsessed with Colbie Caillat's new song Fallin For You! It is the best thing that has ever happened to me! Haha As my friends know up here, I pretty much say that about everything I like! "Oh my gosh that is the best thing that have ever happened to me! Oh my gosh I that is my favorite song! Oh my gosh I love that more than anything!" Haha When I get really excited about something I usually say one of those statements. I am just out of control! Haha

So.... I have gone on a date, and I am going on two more this weekend. I am really excited! I love getting to know people better! That is another thing that has been getting me through my "situation" haha. But I love the people in Greeley. My ward has been awesome so far! I have been getting closer to Carol, Tanner, Devin, Ryan, Alessandra (my awesomest roommate ever! haha), Josh, and so many more people! We have been going crazy... we watch these Youtube videos that are just amazingly funny! One is called 'Can I have yo numba?' and the other one is 'Bon Qui Qui'. Pretty much... we quote these all the freaking time! And pretty much everyone that hangs out at the institute knows these skits... mainly because I am constantly quoting them! Haha Well that is my exciting news for right now! Love love!