To Sleep, Perchance to Dream

some people might not know some things about me... and i don't really know who reads this... but it is kinda for me as well as other people. So here it is... stuff about Kennedy McIntosh you might not be able to see on the outside...

10. I am a hopeless romantic. To the max!

9. I am super sensitive... to just about everything.

8. I love attention... but then again who doesn't?

7. Singing is my life.

6. I have dreams about my life that no one knows about.

5. When I hear a song I fall in love with, I become absolutely obsessed with it. I will listen to it over and over again.

4. I love getting flowers. Hasn't happened in a long time. But when it does happen it is one of the most special things ever!

3. I HATE being alone.

2. My family is more important to me than anything.

1. I love My Savior.

Life is nuts!

Well it has been a long time since I have written on here! So here is the update! I moved up to Greeley for school again. I started going to school and from there things just got super crazy! School is pretty tough this semester, I am taking German and Music History, which are my two hardest classes. But school wise things are going pretty well. I am still singing, and I love it so much! As far as my social life goes... well I have had some difficulty in that department. I missed my bestie... Melanie so much! Still miss her... but I guess things are going ok now. I went home a while ago and just wanted to stay there. It was like pulling teeth to get me to come back up to Greeley. Sorry Greeley loves! Haha But I am back up in Greeley now, and actually things are going very well. As soon as I got over myself and started focusing on other things than the pitty party I had going on things started happening.... First of all a really good friend was very persistent in trying to get me to open up to him. Haha Hauns Brereton was there for me the day I got back and things were just ridiculous. He was there to hang out with me... and well we got to be better friends than we were already.... Then we started dating!!!! Haha He is a basketball player for UNC, just got off his mission like three months ago, he went to Taiwan. He is also 6'6"!! So super tall. It is funny because he is still taller than me when he is sitting... I guess it depends on the chair he is sitting in! haha but he is still crazy tall! haha It is the best!

But anyway, right now I am just trying to find a job so I can stay up here in Greeley! School is super expensive! It sucks! I am sure there will be more things to talk about some other time! But for now that is what is going on in my life!

Fallin' For You... <3!

So I am up here at school. It has been two weeks, probably two of the most difficult two weeks for me lately. I left my family, my best friend, and my comfort box. Haha But things have been going ok up here, apart from the difficult part! One of the things that has been getting me through is music! Haha I have been obsessed with Colbie Caillat's new song Fallin For You! It is the best thing that has ever happened to me! Haha As my friends know up here, I pretty much say that about everything I like! "Oh my gosh that is the best thing that have ever happened to me! Oh my gosh I that is my favorite song! Oh my gosh I love that more than anything!" Haha When I get really excited about something I usually say one of those statements. I am just out of control! Haha

So.... I have gone on a date, and I am going on two more this weekend. I am really excited! I love getting to know people better! That is another thing that has been getting me through my "situation" haha. But I love the people in Greeley. My ward has been awesome so far! I have been getting closer to Carol, Tanner, Devin, Ryan, Alessandra (my awesomest roommate ever! haha), Josh, and so many more people! We have been going crazy... we watch these Youtube videos that are just amazingly funny! One is called 'Can I have yo numba?' and the other one is 'Bon Qui Qui'. Pretty much... we quote these all the freaking time! And pretty much everyone that hangs out at the institute knows these skits... mainly because I am constantly quoting them! Haha Well that is my exciting news for right now! Love love!

Here Comes Goodbye :(

Well, today is my last real day in A-town, my home, and with my best friends, especially Melanie! It is now just hitting me right now that I am not just going up to Greeley for a visit, but that I am actually moving my life back up there. Although I am going to have a great year, I am so sad to be leaving my life down here. I have met so many wonderful people while I was home for the summer, and strengthened an already great friendship. This summer has been filled with a lot of good times, and sad times also. But overall I think this summer has been the best I have EVER had! I had to opportunity to do so many things. I went rock climbing with my family. I went to the pool almost every day for a month and a half with Mel. I went on so many great dates. I woke up at 4 in the morning to go wakeboarding! I saw movies, played some intense volleyball, stayed up until 4 am, and even went to work the next day! I went mini golfing for the first time, got addicted to Dr. Pepper, and got to work with some of my best friends! I was attached at the hip to my best friend ever... and did everything with her this summer! As you can tell it was a very eventful summer! So thank you everyone for making it the best ever!

Me and Melanie BESTIES!!!

Calvin Funk

Steffen Moss

Preston Jones

Tyler Crook

Get a load of me, get a load of you! <3

So I have been having the best summer ever! I have had to opportunity to hang out with some new friends, and of course my best friend pretty much every day! I don't think I would have had it any other way. Lately I have been contemplating my life in every way possible. I have been thinking about what I want in an eternal companion, about school, about my social life, about my religion, really just about everything! I love my life so much, and I am so thankful that I have to opportunity to do what I do.

I had to opportunity to give a talk in church today, and to sing two different times. I gave a talk on trials and how we are refined through them if we choose to be. It was a very eye opening concept to think about. I thought about how much the early saints suffered, and how Joseph Smith suffered so much in his life. These people suffered so much yet they chose to turn to the Lord with their trials. It just amazes me how some people can have that much faith. I know that I try and have that much faith, but it doesn't seem like I get anywhere. Anyway, I sang with a friend in church and it just filled me up so much. I love singing more than anything. I also sang my favorite song to sing, I Heard Him Come, in my aunts ward. I just LOVE singing! Haha

Another thing that has been poking and prodding at me is this whole boy situation I am in. I don't really know what to do about it, so I am winging it. I know somewhat what I want, and I know what I don't want. It can be confusing and hard to separate at times... but honestly if I know what I want then why not get it! Ahhh haha I love getting my words out there. By writing on this funny blog it feels like I am venting to someone who will listen! Haha I am such a dork!

Well I love all of my friends, and I have had so much fun this summer! It has honestly been the best summer of my life! Haha sometimes I just get butterflies for no reason... and well right now is one of those times! I just love my life right now! I love my family... I love my crazy sisters and my brothers, and my parents of course! I just love everyone! I am going to miss my life in Aurora when I go back up to school! But the show must go on! <3

Mmmmhmmm!

So.... I have had a great week so far. My mom and I went out to lunch on Monday, and just talked about a ton of stuff. I missed that. I hadn't hung out or really talked to her in a long time. I played volleyball that night after FHE. I did not do as well as I did last week which is O.K. We always play volleyball until like midnight. It can get kind of frustrating because we get some people who just don't have any coordination... and well volleyball is a sport of coordination. My sexy mexy and I get really frustrated as do some of the other people. But I guess we just have to live with the stalkers who play with us every week. Haha

I have this full time job that pays really well, and all I do is pretty much sit there. It is nice, but boring at times. I work with my friends Carrie and Calvin and Scott. Today Calvin and I decided that we are going to go sit out on a corner downtown (because we work right downtown) where it is busy and play some music and try and get money for it. He is going to play the harmonica, Carrie is going to play the keyboard, and I am going to sing, and possibly pretend to play the guitar for fun. It should be really fun when we get around to it. We have to have a band practice before we can actually act like bums. I guess Calvin and Steffen talked to this bum downtown the other night, so they know all the good places to make money. Haha oh my life.

I am so excited for school. I know that I talk about it a lot, but I just can't help it. I am nervous however, for the actual school part. But still extremely excited. I have been doing a lot of thinking and trying to obtain the better things in life. I am in debt right now and can't wait for my first paycheck so I can start getting out of debt. I am just so happy about all the blessings in life that I have. I love my family so much and I am so glad that my mom is so loving to me. I love my friends so much. I am so happy that I am able to be myself around everyone, and they still like me. Haha I can get pretty weird sometimes. Well that is all that is on my mind for now!

Life can be crazy... I just need stability

So lately I have been feeling like I just don't have any control whatsoever over any aspect of my life. It is not a good feeling. I don't know what to do with my life... I don't have any money... I don't really have the support of my family with anything I am doing... The only stable thing I have in my life is part of my social life. And even that is kind of out of control. Melanie is really awesome, and my best friend! I go to church, and that is THE only for sure stable thing I have. I don't want to complain too much... or at all even. I just feel like my life has become too crazy to handle right now. I just need an outlet. Haha That is all that has been on my mind for tonight.